just received the letter from mindef. haha. wow, its a satisfying pes for me. LOL. hmmm kinda expected but on the other hand, there's still got disadavantages but i dont mind. so ya. my future will most likely to be stick to become a teacher if nothing happen. haha.

ya lor. inspired by my lecturers, friends and some others. LOL ya lor. hmmm not bad hor. haha. one things i need to tell, my dad and bro gone back to malaysia. sian. i want to go back but i couldnt beared to live my mum all alone in singapore. so i choose to stay here and of course i need there's still alot of other reason, i choose not tell and i dont wanna waste my effort. haha.

ya lor. still got what to tell?? think no more le ba. hmmm oh ya still got, i need to go back to the campus to receive my good progress award, seriously never expected because during the days, i gave attitude towards my lecturer, pon- school, studies still quite okay nia and i received the award. wonder what are the criteria. LOL. ya i going to finish another hk drama le. haha. wohooo!!!! lol. goood. keep going. okay la, i lame. haha. take care my friend.

okay somebody told me, i wrote things on these blog does not say my 'xin shi' so now this blog is specially dedicated to this friend. haha.

okay. haha. hmmmm recently trying to help a friend i think? i dont know whether he or she still treats me as a friend ma. but seriously i dont mind, the person whom am i helping treat me as a friend ma. maybe the person just treat me as a stepping stone ba or just a 'jiu sheng quan' ba. haha. i dont know. all i could do is just to help the person whenever he or she is in a need. haha.

so ya lor. i knew that one day, this will not going forever but i just want to help with all i could even though i know i have alot of shortcomings. haha. ya lor. sad hor?? furthermore, i know there's always a price for me to pay. if i'm land in asylum in the future or break contact with alot people i dont mind, as long it will show a bit of improvement and i'm happy enough. LOL. okay that's all for my xin shi.

hmmm yesterday went to national library to photocopy the whole book of leap of love. haha. i thought i was getting charged because i was not permitted to photocopy the whole pages of book due to some copyright issue. but i was lucky. haha. hehe. finally found the book and could read how ks would be the devoted guy to li-ann. LOL. hmmm i think i'm just like ks ba. haha. dont know la, think too much. haha. okay thats all for blogging. do look out a next new blog post.

wow, dont know why cant blog this afternoon damm it. zzzzzz. thinking of having hypontism. haha. LOL. hope it useful to me. haha. LOL. ya lor. haha. seriously i want to be mentally strong, i wouldnt want to be alot of things to hinder my success. haha. maybe wo shi chi ren shuo meng hua.

wow, i'm sicked le. down with sore throat, running nose and dry cough. wow killed me, during the hospitalisation, i was give any medication, sian lor. i tell doctor, i very tong ku, they just fu yan wo. sian la. haha. that is why i choose not to tell those psychitrast whats my problem. seriously, they are just pay to do what they want and my duty is to let them to listen what they want me to say. haha. isnt very ironic?? LOL. wo hao xiang dui ta shuo, you she me shi qing, zhi yao zi ji zhan qi lai jiu gou le, zhe shi ni de ren sheng, ni bu xu yao qian jiu zhe ta de. zhen de. okay going to sleep le. haha. lol. tired after a night of watching the stars. lol.

i thinked i'm fine by now. haha. hmmm suffered alot through losing. suddenly i feel that my life is full of misery. haha. i think the mood during last fri. lol.

feel quited normal there except being feel lonely because not much people visited me there and restricted here and there. i have suicidal thoughts before but its not the best way to solve the problem.

i have alot of problems when it comes to friendship, family, future, just to name a few. hope i could be better next time ba. i think hypontisim will be useful to me even though i have never tried it before.

so ya thats all lor. u can say i crazy or anywhat. i dont care. take care my friend

dont know what to say or what to say. just went to nuh just for the purpose to see babies. haha. its the only place i ever feel no scheming, no sorts of ever. haha.

wow feel so high after i eat 16 pills of fluvoximine and two panadol extra and drink one can of beer. wow zai man. lol. haha. feel so high. i want to fly now!!!! horrary

blog of the day. haha. today damm crazy de. from bugis to orchard. orchard to jurong then from jurong to vivo then from vivo to old airport road then from old airport road to suntec and from suntec back to orchard.

before that i was writting a letter, wow. it was years since the last one was wrote. haha. too long le right?? LOL. haha. ya lor. i also think so. haha. lol. i remembered vividly what i wrote it. but couldnt salavaged ath in the end. however this letter was meant to be a top secret to me. LOL. if my friends never goes to my house from now on.

ya. haha. thats what my history. haha. LOL. a his story. LOL. that what i learned it from my classmates. well, they are a bunch of friends where they can crap along. haha. ya lor. haha. anyway one of my friend told me, she changed her mindset against frogs!!! yeah!!! LOL. i love it. haha.


keep going. LOL. change change and nobody will kill frogs liao. haha. oh ya tml have the urge to see leap years again. haha. well, i guess i'm alone again. haha. cause nobody will like to see a love romance movies which was produced by the local?? haha

well, today went alone to see the movie called leap years. its quite a interested movie. haha. most important of all are my favourite singer!!! corrine u rocks!!! LOL. haha. singaporean proud. oh ya thanks to xiang for intro me this artist to me. haha

maybe my friend widi will know who xiang is. haha. LOL. oh ya back to the leap year topic. its really a very interested movie if u are a english literature type. lol. furthermore 715's style of english are not too bad although his way of speaking sounds a little bit funny. however its pretty okay. haha.


ya the end of blogging. pardon me for being a moutain turtle. lol. so pasi seh ar. haha

well, a promise are meant to be fulfilled even the person u promised to are not here with u anymore. haha. isnt that imbecile??? maybe?

haha. seriously i dont even have a sense of grieve? haha. dont know ba. cause my mindset are kinda weird de. haha. i thinking of alot what are my futures are like. to be a teacher? a cnb officer? a farmer? an investor?? dont know la. haha. planning my futures are isnt as easy as it takes to realise.

lol. the most likely route i would take is to be a teacher and open a farm in taiwan. i dont mind i spend tons of money into that farm. as long, u get the signal. i'm contented enough. haha. but dont ever think in this life, u will know it anymore.

thinking alot of what friends told me. haha. hmmm i know my blog is always that dull de la. haha. dont need u all say de. thinking of what my friend told me. haha. sometime the way i act and the way i think its totally different from what i am.

sighed. thinking thinking. haha. hmmm think will going to redang for having a holiday ba. haha. since its quite okay nia the price, affordable for me. haha. hmmmm dont know leh. haha. see first ba. but i do need a few days to think of what i want. so ya lor. haha.

dont know what to blog, think i will just miss everybody. haha. thats all.

today just finished a drama which i have procastinated for 7 months. haha. didnt know i would delay until that ba. haha. hmm that drama is none other than 'drive of life'. think jessica are such a good wife to joe. even though joe did alot of evil things. hmmm think joe are just like one of my friend. haha. hope the friend of mine would have a better lifestyles.

haha. so ya lor. haha. sian!!! think i want to buy aiya diary soon liao. haha. totally immensed to an illness called i love one litre of tears. LOL. haha. okay lor. dont know what to say liao. haha. feel bored. play viwawa. chiong my level t0 as high as possible. haha

blog of the day, haha. hmmm went to east coast for class bbq. haha. reached there about 6 sth with guan. haha. before i went to east coast, i myself went to starhub centre to enquire about acca course.

well, a word which immediately comes to me. its so sian?? LOL. because the module i paid which doesnt include tutiorial fees. as a matter of fact, they dont have tutorial lesson. but they do have lecture. imagine la, a 100-120 students attend one lecture. do i have the time to ask questions sololy?? lol. hopefully joycelyn and polar will study with me.

haha. see first lor. then the class bbq was quite okay. hmmm thinking back, we werent an united class during the whole duration of courses. we sometime dont even have unity. looked at one of the group work, we already know liao. haha. but when it comes to class gathering, somehow we dont even hold grudges against each other. haha.

as for me, even though they always say me and zhen zhen. even though i know its joke. but somehow i dont deny the fact sia. haha. lol. its been a year plus, since she left us. haha. the way i missed the most was her laughter and her 'blush face'. LOL. so ya lor. haha.

then heard on the way back to take bus, i walked with felicia, iza they all. lol. hmmm they talked about those lecturer which they like. their answer was ms choo. LOL. omg, maybe i and her ba zi bu he ba. always make her gastric pain. especially during year one. haha. LOL

ya. haha. i still remebered cj. haha. wonder how is he. maybe he already finished his bmt liao. haha. seriously speaking, i do missed most of my classmates. even though most of the time i was on mia-ing. haha. then even tio debarment. haha. in fact all of the lecturer seems quite okay with me even though sometime, i do give em alot of attitude problem. LOL

dont know why leh, when everything coming towards the end, i dont look forward to end it. lol. i hope it can procastinate as long as possible. haha. somehow my mindset and the action i gave to others seems contradict everytime. haha.

oh ya, i want to thanks polar for being such a great help for me. haha. even though his english and my english, one sky and one ground. haha. hard to communicate. LOL but he made me understand that most of the americans are friendly towards asian people. haha.

the next stage are going towards another stage of my life liao, national service. haha. hmmm heard lotsa stories. hmmm i dont know how it gives me lor. either i go to the best most elite force or i will go to the most lao ya one. haha. see how lor. haha.

its going to 5 a.m liao. dont think can go sleep liao. haha. tomorrow schedule, going to republic poly for friend's enrollment. haha. take care my friend.

so ya. haha. i dont regret to write my earlier post. haha. horrary!!! haha. tml bbq. haha. hehe. so sui. haha. hope will have alot of people come ba. haha.

hmmm anyway think most of us will go for further education except guys for us. need to go ns. haha. to suffer three months bmt. haha.

hmmm so ya lor. haha. suddenly rmb there's a friend who told me something, hmmm said her friend is all guy. maybe her charactersitics ba. hmmm at least u got a friend who accompanied u through thick and thin le ma. haha

so ya lor. haha. hmmm take care my friend. haha

blog of the day, just came back from outside. haha. hmmm think i need to mak my stance clear!!!! I HAVE NO INTENTON OF GETTING INTO ANY RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE NS IS COMING SOON AND I DONT THINK I'M A GOOD GUY!!!!

ya thats all, why cant those fucking people understand this??? and please la, dont be despo leh. u should know who am i referring to, why do u want to be such an ass to interfere other's people thing. please dont tell me u're such a noble guy, that u wish to know more about her or what la. this is just an excuses which i dont even think drama will use it anymore!!!! please stop ur foolish act at once, if not i dont think whats the consequences are. as a 5 years friend of urs, should i be such a good person to warn u this fucking people!!! its good to know that u have this kind of illness which cant be cured!!! HORRAY!!!!!

if u dont want to see this. please flood as much as u do because i dont even give u a damm!!!!!

AS A WHOLE, PLEASE DONT EVERYTIME THINK U ARE ALWAYS RIGHT BECAUSE U THINK IS RIGHT, MAYBE OTHER PEOPLE THINK IS WRONG!!!! IF U CONTINUE THIS WAY, THERE'S A JOB I SHOULD RECOMMENDED U TO DO, THAT WILL BE LAWYER BUT I DONT THINK U EVER QUALIFY FOR IT BECAUSE OF FUCKING ENGLISH GRADE THAT U SCORE IN O'S!

hey i'm here to blog again. haha. feel like playing viwawa leh. but dont have the mood to play. haha. lol. maybe getting bored?? LOL. haha. i saw one of my viwawa mates on the board list when i was entering the hall.


i wonder how she really looks. haha. maybe she's a girl who everybody going for?? LOL. i dont know but all the best. LOL. looking forwards to class bbq on this coming friday. well, somehow i do really enjoy, some isnt. haha. i gonna miss alot of people. especially polar and ting, ling and joyce they all ba. lol.

even though i'm a regular mia students but i do pass the module. haha. so ya lor. haha at least u make me have a broder mindset where i'm not that ignorant, navie guy anymore. haha. thanks man!!! lets work hard together, my friend. haha

a few days had passed and its already in the third month of the new year. haha. hmmm after go to bayshore i actually asked mic and rc for a supper however they did not wanted to dine at there, so ended up i'm the one who ate at there.

haha. sian leh. haha. my birthday going to organise something but i'm the one who give out the most amount. haha. LOL. damm it!!!! haha. but no choice, who ask i'm the one who celebrated birthday.

oh ya hor. i need to ica for some legal procedure. haha. so ya lor. haha. if not that #$@!#@% thing i wouldnt being called up for ns liao. haha. sian!!!! nvm being a singaporean would guaranteed me to get money every year from the goverment. haha. not a bad idea right??

furthermore, i think i would be going to save money to buy a laptop and this laptop is the expensive among all, the macbook air. LOL. tio tempted by the apple co-owners, steve. haha. so ya lor. haha.

the last thing i think of signing up for nebo because the previlages seems tempting. if i'm going to sign up, i would be going for the most ultimate one. haha. the one which i need to pay 69 sing dollars if i didnt remembered wrongly. haha. so ya, that all from the the pope, the froggy. lol. take care.

today had a not a bad day, had a talk with wei qiang after some of my stuffs. haha. hmmm so ya lor. haha. sian. but that zhong wang cant meet because of guard duty, hate it. LOL but nvm lor. haha. next time lor. haha. take care my friend. hehe

hmmm yesterday i just completed 'one litre of tears' not a bad drama. LOL. well, if u guys who likes to watch this drama. u can either get to find it on tudou or crunchyroll. lol. as for me, i downloaded the drama from tudou and i put it on my ipod and viewed it even though i have the dvd set. haha.

aiya u really inspire me even though u died in the end, sighed. why do such a good girl got this sia. hai. nvm, nice drama. lol. two thumbs up for this drama. lol. it really gives me alot of motivation and inspriation!!! yeah.

hmmm so after this drama will try to watch the movie version of 'one litre of tears' haha. lol. u rocks man!!! especially aiya looks so cute in that drama and her 'penguin' walk. okay now piak what a student should do. lol. k books.

take care my friend.

blog of the day. hmmm continue of yesterday's thing. received there's an event from the church 'fisherman' regarding about this coming saturday.

there's an outing at bedok reservior at 10 a.m. if i'm not wrong. well, i think there's alot of high risk involved. hmmm on top of that, there's an addition of 20 dollars to pay in order to have the participation.

from the point of my view, i think its fun but i dont know will i be able to allow my parents to sign the consent form and also i have no idea will i be able to wake up at that time. so ya. hmmm today go out with guan and at orchard, we met ah ling they all. haha. so conicidence. but we never talk much. as we care to settle our own 'business'. LOL

so ya. take care lor. anyway i have something to share but dont ask me what and why. hmmm cause its my personal problem. haha. especially i dont want to let hypocrite know. so ya. take care buddy.

second day of watching one litre of tears. think its a very good drama especially aya contracted Spinocerebellar ataxia where nothing can be cured and it deteoriates ur health as time goes by. it reallys gives me an motivation for continue to live on. i hope anybody who wants to commit suicide watched this drama.

seriously i do feel that why i have such a navie mindset for the past few years. hmmm anyway to all my friend who wish to commit suicide. its not a bad idea of ending a life, but do u think of other's feeling especially ur parents, siblings and friend's feeling?? i know its a painful process of hurt by ur love ones but think of the above i mentioned and ur unrealised dreams. think about it, in the meantime u can confide with me.

furthermore there's still an unfortunate group where they need helps. think of it lor. still got alot reason for not to commit suicide.

today just watched the episode one of one litre of tears. i think aya is a very pitiful girl whereby she has no idea what she's contracted. hmmmm its a very sad drama i think, if i got this disease, i think its quite good at least i lost all the abilities i have it.

lol. but on a second thought, would i feel happy for it?? LOL. i dont think so ba. nvm lor. haha. yesterday stayed out and learned cycling but still cant managed to master it. LOL. guess i'm a slow learner. nvm lor. next time learn those basics de. haha.

so ya thats all. sometime i wish to say alot but i'm being restricted. haha. nvm lor. its life isnt it?? bye and take care.