孤单永远是最孤独的,而寂寞永远都是伴随着孤单而来

Saturday 29 December 2007

just read teng, qiang's and kang's blog. think nowadays people around me tend to emo. i dont know why?? because of the weather?? sigh. seriously i think i haven change in few years. things come back to me. well, i think its probably my pessimistic character which matters. haha. dont know la. i dont know why i always emo.

*cough* seriously i dont know what can i do sia. nvm lor. hope school reopen soon. if not i will be conqueor by this emo monster as what its suggested by my daughter, joyce. haha

Friday 28 December 2007

had nothing much today. haha. but a question cross my mind. which was what the purpose of we survive in this world?? to be a great one, just like mozart or Albert Einstein contribute to the society?? or just like what a typical people do. work for the whole life and earns a little sum of money??

awww. even until now, i have no idea what would i do for the future. everywhere u go, it needs money. without money, it simply couldnt possible to create the word romantic or even enter into a restroom. lol. thats how pathetic when a person who dont bring any or insufficient money along .

haha. well, its pretty true. what a typical person would do for his or her life, got a degree or a diploma, find a job and the person will starts to embark a journey which is a 8-5 job. you woke up early and u need to get into a train or a bus which full of people in order to reach your work place. awww. thats the life i want?? i supposed not because its boring!!!!

however on a second thought, without leading what a typical person do. there wont be an income for me and without income. its means its the end for me. awwww!!! lol. haha. seriously i have been thinking for all day long, what lifestyle should i be heading to after graduation.
really its sucks, sometime i do envy those people who born in a rich family because their job was to spend and academic results doesnt matter to them. haha

i think need to end here because i got to see a korean show which is witch yo hee. haha. hope i spell correctly. haha
well, today wasnt a pretty bad day for me. haha. although it was drizzling for almost an hour. haha. sian! today accompanied by my brother and mummy to cmpb for further medical examination.

seriously speaking it was nothing, being asked by him for a few a questions based on the 5 wh and it doesnt last long than 5 mins. haha. but i was kinda enthu when he told me, i most probably will be posted to administrative work. omg. that wasnt what i yearning for all along??

on the contaray, if its true. i dont think i'm eligible for signing up. lol. sian liao!!!!! omg!!! kinda depressed now. no la just joking de la. haha. want to be more strong, always happy and most important of all, win over her. LOL. i hope i can make it. 'bie rang ta kang bu qi le.' bleah. haha.

after which i had my lunch on dim sum buffet which was located somewhere near depot road, have you guys heard of depot height shopping centre? i bet there's not much people heard that shopping centre because its a neighbourhood shopping centre and the place was remote too. well, it wasnt the same experience as the previous one because i'm on a sleeping mood. so it was so so.

after that, bid farewell to mum because she need to met her boss at four in the afternoon. so as what we planned earlier on, my bro and i went to gim moh, intend to sign myself up as a volunteery worker. however out of my expectation, it was so hard to sign it up because they dont provide direct sign up and i was like its going to be a futile trip for today. sian la!!!! why???~!

damm it. haha. a volunteery work which kinda interest me which was giving some free tuition service to kids but i dont think i could make it due to my my english and math. so i dont think they will use me as a volunteer. sighed. well, what a wasted opportunities because if i used not to skip school that often and listened to what teacher told us to do. i guess i would not land myself in a predicament which end up of going nowhere. dammm it. kinda regret. but what its a past tense. so i guess i couldnt do much it either.

sian! thats what i have spend my day and how do u guys spend each and everyday on?? either work or study?? haha. anyway thats life!

by the way, i saw fir's faye and ah qing are going to marry each other. i give my blessing to them because they finally knew they are right for each other and the proposal by ah qing was romantic. lol. because the report which i have read and i could imagined how was it like. awwww. lol. you've done it man!!! lol

Wednesday 26 December 2007

well, have been happened alot of things around me and i think its settled. haha. anyway didnt got anything for xmas so abit diao lor. haha. sian! lol. nvm lor, every year my xmas was full of dullness. haha. so there's no expectation for this. haha. lol.

hmmm today stayed at home and watched drama. one series have been completed and there's fifteen to go. haha. guess i couldnt finished it when the year end. haha. oh ya how u think about my new blogskin?? lol. my sis, xiao ping helps me to find. haha. i think its pretty good too. just dont like that ah moh nia. haha. have been thinking alot!!! what should i do for this holiday??

i got a new daughter, her name is joyce. do take care of her ar?? LOL. haha. i would like to have her as my real daughter because its fun ma. haha. but not in finiancial wise ar. haha. if not i broke liao. haha. mickey lover. LOL

anyway tml got to be going for cmpb for another futher medical examination. sian! lol. but thats obligation for every male singapore citizen whether as a pr or singapore when they have reach at a certain age and require to serve the nation. haha. so sian! lol. nvm my life has already been staked in the air force i think. hopefully can sign on lor. haha. ya thats all. stay cheers my friend!!!

Tuesday 25 December 2007

after had some sleep. zhong yu xiang tong he duo shi, huo xu shi zi ji xiang bu tong, huo zuan niu jiao jian ba. haha. hmmm wo xiang tong le, a person whose life does not need to encircle by his or her. its simple and yet nobody seems to know this theory and logic. even i also have problems whether can i do it ma.

sighed. wo xiang wo tai guo eng liao la. that why wo hui hu xi ruan xiang. hao le i think i should travel to cdc to do volunteery work. ban zhu na xie he bu xing de er tong or ah gong or ah ma. jiu xiang yesterday widi and me shuo jian de, zai wo xin mu zhong, you yi zhuo fang zi, ke shi zai ta de si zhou wei, shi yi ge hen gao hen gao de wei qiang(not that wei qiang hor) lai bao hu zi ji. haha. jiu xiang my section head doctor koo shuo jiang de. i tend to use feelings to make decision. which is very bad. huo zhe xiang rong cheng yi qian ge wo jiang de, wo zuo shi mei jing guo da nao.

dui dui dui!!!! I AGREE TO EVERYBODY SAID. but i dont have the determination which is very bad. i need a breakthrough in my life. a breakthrough which can give me a new life!!!!! let me remembered what is the purpose of life. is it self torment? or everyday think postively? i hope is the latter part which can change!!!! yi qian wo xiang wo zhao dao le, ke shi you shi qu le. sian la!!! sighed!

I NEED A BREAKTHROUGH IN MY LIFE IF NOT I REALLY WILL DIO KI SIAO DE AND MAKE PEOPLE AND MYSELF SUFFER !!!!!!

neng hui dao guo qu ma??

really have no mood to blog at all but without even blogging i dont think i will have the mood ba. sighed. okay i think this post will use singlish to post it ba. hope to see her smile again, 20 hours 38 min 50 sec.

yesterday was not a great day, i have sent two message to a best friend, cai hui wen. i dont know what's wrong with me la. zhen de hao xiang, xin li zhu zhe yi ge er mo, gen ben jiu rang wo yong he bu li zhi de xin shi qu lai zuo mou jian shi. ke bei ba. received 11 message from my friends. but 9 of it consist of hui wen de. wo zhen de hao hen wo ji zi, i waited the sms until its not too lag for the whole night. hai

huo gai right? hui wen wo zhi dao cuo le, wo wei she me zhe yang dui ni, 就像你得好朋友说讲的,我不是你得什么人。为什么我会这样子做,连我自己都搞不清楚,我会这样子做。我真的好像要你的笑容,我真的好想,可是会有可能吗? 不知为什么,我不由自主地流下了眼泪。我真的好忏悔我所对你做的一切伤害。

我想根本不可能回到原来了吧。

wo zhen de bu shang yu biao da, hai you jian shi wo gao bu dong. wei shen me wo shuo concern de, wo mei ci dou yong hurtful word lai dui ta. wei shen me?? xiao xi shi zhe yang, geraldine ye shi, ta ye shi, wei she me?????! wo xiang shi wo de negative thinking zai zuo sui, wo zhen de bu zhi dao ga zhe me xie xia qu le.

dui bu qi wo rang ni guo le yi ge he bu yu kuai de xmas day, sui rang ji ke yi rang wo biao ta wo shuo xiang de, ke shi na yi zhong feeling shi wu fa explain de. shuo yi ne wo should end this post.

final wish: wo xi wang ni le, xiao kou chang kai. zhen de. chu le xi wang, wo zi ji dou bu dong suo shen me hao.

Monday 24 December 2007

emoing now. haha. just saw my children's blog. she's so cute. haha. well, i should said mickey are cute. haha. but i dont like a person who referring himself as mickey. thats pretty sucks though. haha. had bad experience with it. haha

well, still havent know what to do during on xmas. haha. sian. anyway today was widi's birthday. had a hard time to find him a present because i wanted to have a present which is budget and pretty enough. haha. so i chose a cup for him. lol. but i dont think its nice. haha. just hack care lor. haha. LOL.

okay anyway merry xmas to everyone. haha

Saturday 22 December 2007

well, today will be have a relatively short blog post too. haha. hmmm woke up at 3 a.m in the midnight and i kinda remebered hui wen's sms. lol. and i was right. LOL. so spend on my day in cr for sending xmas greeting to all of my friends. haha. hmmm after that took a nap and i received jing's msg and ask me to online and chatted about tch. lol.

well, its pretty fun. haha. and what an imagination she has. lol. haha. LOL. and after that went to see the hand surgery at sgh. haha. hmmm never got ticked off and he was asking me whether do i need an injection. shit i hate injection especially the needles. LOL.

and after that lazy to say liao. haha. i'm wondering should i say hi to her if i'm going to og and bought widi's present?? should i?? LOL. i dont know leh. haha. lol. sian la. haha. LOL. ya thats all. haha.

Final Wish: May all my friends have a happy xmas day. haha.

Friday 21 December 2007

hey i'm sorry, josh. i have already forgotten your birthday man. haha. hmmmm so sorry my dear friend. haha. hey late happy birthday. wow indeed i have alot of friends whom their birthday is fall on the decemeber. haha. hmmm so happy birthday to all. LOL

okay i think this post are going to be a relatively a short one because have nothing to write also. haha. hmmmm however this applies to my chinese blog too. so here it goes, in a few hours time. i would get a tick off from the specialist from sgh. its because i had not obey what he had told me to do which is wear a hand protective gear to protect my swollen nerves on the right hand for the past 6 weeks. 24/7. awwww. well, i deserve the tick off right?? confirm de la. LOL

anyway please look out for my chinese blog because i'm going to post it on everyday basis or even week to week basis. haha. whichever i like. haha. okay thats the end. and today is 3.51 a.m i have already spend this moment with you. blogger. hope you enjoy with my accompany. haha.

Tuesday 18 December 2007

just bought from an indian a watch which cost me ten bucks. haha. i'm pondering whether worth that money. however i was touched by his word. normally i wouldnt buy a single thing when there's a door to door sales promoter.

haha. its quite suay la because i knew he was knocking my house door and yet i try to close the window. sian! dio caught. nb!!!!! i dont know whether hes out there to cheat people's money because 'qian che ke jian'. awwwww if its real, i have my sympathies on him. especially singaporean are not that 'ai xin' de. sian sian!!!

dont know what to post liao. end here ba do take care for all of my friend especially u.

Monday 17 December 2007

this blog entry consist of two days. today and yesterday. okay i will start from yesterday. intend to meet qiang they all at two in the afternoon. however it doesnt motivated me, furthermore i have not bought his present. so i kinda dont really want to go that early to avoid embarrasment and also refrain myself from spending too much! So i decided to have a stroll with my brother's friend, zhen jin at chinatown instead. lol

none did our expect, it rained heavily about two in the afternoon. i was like awwww. lol. thus we need to run in the rain but its kinda fun. LOL :D. especially i brought my newly bought crumpler bag along and test whether its being water proof? the result of that experimemnt was statisfactory. :D hmmm anyway its was the first time to see her. lol. her name is hui wen who work as a promoter in og. lol. shes as pretty as a shit, LOL. no la. just joking as georgeous as a swan i think. haha. intend to say hi to her but the first time i go, she was not at her counter, the second time i went there with widi, she's there but she was busy attending her customers, in the end i never said hi to her. lol.

we took a stroll for more than four hours. lol. haha. its kinda memorable because i got to walk back to the same route which i walked it for eleven years. lol. when the time was up, i bid a farewell to zhen jin and met widi. he intends to buy a birthday gift for qiang and also goes to that shop where they promised him to put 6 free games into the psp which he bought last week.

therefore kinda hang there around for nearly an hour and buy time to think of what to buy for qiang's birthday gift. unfortunately, we couldnt thought of anything to buy for qiang. after putting the game into the psp, we headed to marina square to meet qiang, kit, yue, min and ying for dinner and also his birthday celebration.

however we never bought his presents how? how? how? and qiang kept calling to 'cui' us but we decided to delay it since we are late for the celebration. lol. hmmm after thirty mins, we found a pig calendar at the times bookstore which i previously bought for 'her' also. moreover, the price also make us satisfactory because its kinda budget!!! LOL.

After bought his presents, we went to the place as what he told us. lol. had our dinner and cake for a couple of hours. then we headed to the bridge somewhere near great world city to play a card game name saboteurs. lol. it also lasted for a couple of hours and its pretty fun because it needs you to think and luck play a significant role to the game too.

when all the things end, its already half past two. lol. so we decided to go off, when we past by zouk, a local popular pubs where youngsters hang around, we saw two ladies and one of the girl was wailing which i think shes being dumped by her bf or having tiff with her bf and decided to confide to her friend.

ya that how i spend my saturday.

speaking of today, widi stay over my house after qiang's celebration and we headed to sim lim square for looking some psp accessories at tweleve in the afternoon. where we spend about two hours there. while we were looking for wheres the cheapest psp accessories, we saw quite a couple of girl who was wearing santa clause suits walking around in the building to give pamphlet to peoples when they saw them. my comment for those girl is wohoooo!!! LOL

on the other hand, we encountered a sales promoter. lol. she explained psp being divided into three different types hardware, software and firmware. for hardware their loading speed is relatively slower than firmware and sometimes it need demo umd to start game but still be able to play downloaded games. lol. in addition, the price are cheaper because the electronic board which i think it was being modified that explain why its cheaper from the rest.

for software, it cant play downloaded game and need umd to play games which i think is the most 'lao ya' out of these three types. lastly the firmware, its the best of all and the price also 'cheapest'. =D can be played downloaded games, does not need umd to start the game and also have one year international warranty from sony. Most important point to note, its definately the first hand product because of the electronic board arent being modified.

lol. however the problem still persist, after bought a crumpler bag for one hundred and eighty three bucks. i yearn for more, a sony psp and an ipod. i kept pondering an ipod touch is better than a nano?? lol. i dont know but ipod touch is better because it has almost the same function as an iphone. furthermore it has wifi, which i dont think i lacks it. lol. sian. so what can i do wor??
sua. i think i need to do more research on that liao. okay got to go. take care guys.happy xmas day in advance. god bless.

Saturday 15 December 2007



' i missed the days' especially i have that nerdy hairstyle!!!

this was the bag i bought today. haha. i think its nice. haha. what do you say??



heres the link for u jing.

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showseries?id=2287

haha. dont say i bu hao hor. haha.

okay happy birthday to wei qiang and wei yue. haha. even though i dont think wei yue wants my birthday greeting. haha. however i wouldnt mind that because as a gentleman, i want to be 'you feng du'. okay. today blog gonna be a rather short one because i have no idea whats to write. haha. hmmm just bought a crumpler bag today, its a complete seed edition which worth about one hundred and eighty three. haha. wow that goes my effort of saving money. lol. sighed. but i wont mind because i have yearn for it for a couple of months. haha. lol. but then what about my psp?? LOL. haha. hmmmm wait lor. haha. sian!!!! T_T

hmmmm this month i have spend quite a lot. haha. a picard wallet, a crumpler bag and a billabong pencil case which could cost me up to three hundred. haha. awwww. lol. but i think its a neccessities even though i owned alot of bag especially sling bag. haha.

okay. gonna be thrifty and refrain from myself from spending if not bill will come and haunt me again. LOL. awwww!!!! gonna hate it and i'm begging air force to let me goes for an interview!!!! please!!!! if not i'm going to army!!! which i'm very reluctant!!

thats all for today. take care. haha. oh ya came cross a setence which is meaningful for me. If u love someone, let them go. If they return to u, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love is never urs to begin.. what do u guys think??

Final wish: hope their expense of birthday celebration arent costly!!

Friday 14 December 2007

Intro by my Cr Bud. Joyce. haha. its kinda a great songs especially when chermaine sheh dance with a butch of kids. haha. kk enjoy it. haha




hmmm i dont know what to say sia. haha. hmmm received a message from geraldine. haha. its quite funny about singapore workers who is a negro. haha. thank you. hope your term test will score as high as possible so you dont really need to score a very high mark in order to attain an A grade. LOL.

well, few hours ago i read a newspaper article about a 933 dj, Ding Zhi Yong, who say in his msn and facebook nick. 'If u offend me, i will not play your songs for the following six months'. i think its kinda harsh. hmmm but do dj has that authority to ban a singer's song airing on the air? i dont know. however i think if the singer is that talented and 933 being the top number one Chinese Fm in Singapore. does it need to be that extent? sighed i still remembered 5566 incident.

Moreover theres more 'zhi zhe' saying about our local singers, xu mei jing and ah du. They make fun of ah du's educational level and xu mei jing who is came out from imh. why do our most popular chinese music station need to be that extent?? 'zhe bu shi mai muo ren cai le ma'

hai. dont know what to comment la. stop here lor. sighed.

Thursday 13 December 2007

well, i have the urge and it came out of nowhere that why i'm here to post my newest blog entry in this blog. lol. haha. its half past three now and i'm still here. guess i'm going to be the male version of hedwig. XD.

anyway have no idea what to post. however theres something have been pondering for quite some time which is whether should i buy a crumpler bag or a sony playstation portable? haha. used to hate sony playstation portable due to some reasons. on the other hand, after saw my brother and my best pal,widi, owns it. it made me have the desire rush down to a retail shop and bought it on the spot. haha

guess i have a tendacy of buying thing. haha. hmmm help!!!! LOL. okay i guess i'm done now. hehe. take care buddy. oh ya xmas is coming! do you have any plans? plan to spend your xmas day with your love one? friends? or family members? personally i still have no idea how to spend my xmas day. maybe staying at home to sleep?? haha. thats what i do during this day when it comes to my doorstep. hehe

Monday 10 December 2007

hey its me again for another new post. haha. well, it makes me wonder when a couple always goes out with two of their friends. haha. hmmm guess i think i'm paying too much attentation on them. haha. i think its pretty bad.

okay times for some high flying action by jumping. LOL. oh hell yeah. haha. take care for my readers. haha
blog upon request by jing jing. haha. wow. seriously speaking i have nothing to update. wei qiang's birthday is right around the corner and i have no idea what to buy for his present. haha. guess maybe i'm just too lazy and picky. haha. well, recently have alot of things goes to my mind. haha. like what can i do in the future?
sighed.


guess i'm too obess with these two picture. haha. give some comments okay?? haha. appreciate it. haha

Saturday 8 December 2007

blog upon request by cai hui wen lao tai po! sian. i received my letter from cmpb. LOL. asked me to go and see their psychirast at this coming tuesday. haha. well, i changed my appointment because i have another appoinment with another psychirast in imh. haha. wahaha. and it was successful. haha. after went to cmpb, my mum and i went to eat dim sum buffet. haha. it was a sumptuous meal afterall. we ordered quite alot. lol. haha moreover its cheap. haha. lol.

anyway i'm pondering whether can i sign on as a regualr as an elite in the air force. LOL. haha. okay thats the end take care my friend bye. haha

Monday 3 December 2007

just watched three episodes of three different drama series. haha. its kinda nice especially that show which i'm going to recommend is to grow with love. it said about myolie, an obese lady who wish to find her mr right because she think that love can be counter any obstacle ahead if the couple are having the same mindset and also the other party wont mind about she's 'FAT'. well, will keep watching that drama its seems so hiliarious. haha here is the trailer for that drama i'm saying. haha. do give me comment after seeing okay?? thanks



anyway to hui wen, tml is your first day of work. take care and dont miss me too much okay. if not i will be pai seh de leh. haha. and good luck for your work tml. may god bless. hehe

Sunday 2 December 2007

hey its sunday and what do a typical person do on sunday? sleep!!! well, i guess i'm not belong to that group beacause i'm always lack of sleep partly due to the reason of friends stayed in my house so i have no choice to keep myself awake. haha. anyway there's nobody to go my blog and read those post which i have posted except xiao xi? lol.

anyway i just found theres alot of courses whom i have interest but i dont think i'm qualified to it. so i guess lets god to decide my fate. haha. for example, hospitality and resort management, i have lotsa interest to pursue my studies in the particular trade but i'm not qualify it anyway because my horrible results. by the way, i feel kinda emo now, lol cause i pondering about whether do i, not a person who is being 'tuo fu' to ladies and neither i'm the right guy whose confide with for guys. haha. my life is full of misery and mistrust. people who i'm cherish with dont stay long in my life and people i hate goes the opposite way. haha

shit i'm seriously lagging now. i couldnt think of anyfink to describe my feelings. guess i seriously need to catch some sleeps if not i couldnt revise for my upcoming test. sian auditing!!!!! awwwwwwww thats one of my reason why i describe i'm so sian and dull!!! dismal leh!!!!!

well, i have things to make clear it now. if people dont believe i have depression before. i wont explain it much further because no matter how many time and how firm my explaniation is, you will just say really meh?? shi zhen de ma?? bu yao pian wo leh, wo ke bu shi na me rong yi qi bian de. i may look perfectly fine at the moment but who will know in the next moment, i wont do anyfink which is something silly. for example trying to commit sucicide. haha guess its pretty good at least theres no worries anymore. hehe =D. anyway i'm not here to let you believe or not, i just uttered it out because i believe you guys will give me some assurance like what happen?? what do u do dude? and not those questions which i dont give a heck of!

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