my blog are not getting much response. haha. so i'm just write down my thoughts.

its been not gd or a very gd christmas for me. well, i have lotsa negative thoughts or perhaps are am just thinking too much. i think both plays a part. i would really want to clear things out, i know i'm not gd in people's relation. ppl might find me as a joke, failure or immature. i really try things out, but action are always speak louder than words. i just simply cant convert my thoughts into action, that why my friend are just are hi and bye.

LOL. its been ironic but basically that how my life is, even though i can sell alot, however i dont feel tt kind of happiness or recognisation that i'm having. i admit i'm too self-centred, never put myself into other ppl's shoes.

i was just living in my own world!! maybe a change of environment can really change a person's attitude towards life. am hates my job, its been too hypocrite and i'm losing really gd friend. sorry, but do u accept? i'm suppose not.

LOL, but what to do? life wont stop just for u. so please keep your sadness or any negative thoughts and show ppl what are the postitive thoughts u have in ur mind!!!!

Thanks!!!!!! TIRED need to handle interview and customer complaint. shit, its been a south and north!!! or east and west!!! LOL thats life, my friend. haha

i dont like what am i'm treating to people. i dont wish to explain more even i'm misunderstanding. cause i know e more i explain. e more misunderstanding it will be getting. but would anybody know what i really want?

i should ask myself, whether am i too self centred? i hope i can know of certain things. people always say i'm immature of everything, but people wont know of e true reason behind. i really keen on succeed in everything i'm doing but sometime it against my own will.

i'm not good in communicating that why i'm got bully by others. even my own friend who i trust, also feel annoyed by me. that why she dont reply my msg. i have a barrier against ppl. nobody would see how much effort i put in to this. just like psyduck, widi and many more.

sometime i do feel its worthless in this world, i really wish to have sth which i can cling on, e road i walk its very tiring. e more i walk, e more tiring it is, can i end my miserable life?

its been a long time, i didnt blog.

today i met terri for a while, i din knew he was somewhere near funan. so i met him and i was meeting with andy too. so ya, we meet together. then after meeting andy, we go to bugis and find a place to chit chat.

was too stress with my work, actually finding somebody who u feel comfortable with, it was very enjoying. i really need a very long break for me to smoothe out my mood. but on the other hand, a long break indeed need a very strong financial backup. at least 1k? LOL. i think so ba. too tired with everything i have.

somehow i do feel like can control the timing i want, well who dont like it? i couldnt thinking of anything else just do work. i have been so quiet in order not for me to mix with others. i just dont like if i do anything wrong, ppl will say alot of bad things about me.

anyway, i have been seeing too negative things, when can i start seeing postitive things??? i guess not now.