long time never been blog, i thought i would never post this again. maybe xin xue lai chao.

have been thinking will i achieve what i want in my future??

after been the camp, i have been thinking a lot, since i want to do something which people are skpetical about it, i may as well keep going. i believe one day, ppl will join me and we go on together. thats what i believe. who dont wish to change after going via a series of misery which they have been encountered in their life. but they have no idea what are the platform is. singaporean are so skeptical about it and they dont even want to give it another chance. which i feel its a waste la.

thats what i get, just met wei jie this afternoon, chat alot. we chat from football to business and some inspriation movies and people which we feel that they have been achieve in their life like steve jobs, soros, buffet and etc.

been enjoying but i need more appts!!!!

long time never upload le. haha. thinking i have alot of things to upload. firstly i was sad to hear that stella pass away. i knew it's very long but i have still feeling. no wonder i couldnt find her on facebook. i was wondering does she have a facebook? kinda no mood, but still life lor. need to goes on. i'm used to this. i know with this, it can help me goes on my life even further.

Cause i know in this life, either u be e loser or u be winner. i choose to be winner and i need to win everything and i gotta be confident in everything i do. stella although i'm not close to u in class but somehow i feel u're there for me for ur friends ba. i need to have a great motivation.

thats all, i want to do big in this 2010!!!! eldee tang!!! i want to be one of your top earner in your company!!!!

To my Best Friend

I think we have too much misunderstanding, that why the situation like this. i would say sorry even though sorry doesnt seems to a matter anymore.

To me, i think you are better than me, that why i feel you need to be good in everything but i'm wrong, even how strong are u, you are just a human being, u will getting emotional and i'm the unlucky one.

No matter how i dont want to do, you still pull me back and when i'm willing to start as a new beginner. "BOOM" you're gone, is that call retribution? i hope it is. HAHA. but anyway for this period, to me u're the best cause no matter how tired am i, i will still look for you.

Due to my procastination and immature attitude, u gave up on me. Do i still have the chance to talk to you again? i do hope we can change for a better one.

THANKS JK!

my blog are not getting much response. haha. so i'm just write down my thoughts.

its been not gd or a very gd christmas for me. well, i have lotsa negative thoughts or perhaps are am just thinking too much. i think both plays a part. i would really want to clear things out, i know i'm not gd in people's relation. ppl might find me as a joke, failure or immature. i really try things out, but action are always speak louder than words. i just simply cant convert my thoughts into action, that why my friend are just are hi and bye.

LOL. its been ironic but basically that how my life is, even though i can sell alot, however i dont feel tt kind of happiness or recognisation that i'm having. i admit i'm too self-centred, never put myself into other ppl's shoes.

i was just living in my own world!! maybe a change of environment can really change a person's attitude towards life. am hates my job, its been too hypocrite and i'm losing really gd friend. sorry, but do u accept? i'm suppose not.

LOL, but what to do? life wont stop just for u. so please keep your sadness or any negative thoughts and show ppl what are the postitive thoughts u have in ur mind!!!!

Thanks!!!!!! TIRED need to handle interview and customer complaint. shit, its been a south and north!!! or east and west!!! LOL thats life, my friend. haha

i dont like what am i'm treating to people. i dont wish to explain more even i'm misunderstanding. cause i know e more i explain. e more misunderstanding it will be getting. but would anybody know what i really want?

i should ask myself, whether am i too self centred? i hope i can know of certain things. people always say i'm immature of everything, but people wont know of e true reason behind. i really keen on succeed in everything i'm doing but sometime it against my own will.

i'm not good in communicating that why i'm got bully by others. even my own friend who i trust, also feel annoyed by me. that why she dont reply my msg. i have a barrier against ppl. nobody would see how much effort i put in to this. just like psyduck, widi and many more.

sometime i do feel its worthless in this world, i really wish to have sth which i can cling on, e road i walk its very tiring. e more i walk, e more tiring it is, can i end my miserable life?

its been a long time, i didnt blog.

today i met terri for a while, i din knew he was somewhere near funan. so i met him and i was meeting with andy too. so ya, we meet together. then after meeting andy, we go to bugis and find a place to chit chat.

was too stress with my work, actually finding somebody who u feel comfortable with, it was very enjoying. i really need a very long break for me to smoothe out my mood. but on the other hand, a long break indeed need a very strong financial backup. at least 1k? LOL. i think so ba. too tired with everything i have.

somehow i do feel like can control the timing i want, well who dont like it? i couldnt thinking of anything else just do work. i have been so quiet in order not for me to mix with others. i just dont like if i do anything wrong, ppl will say alot of bad things about me.

anyway, i have been seeing too negative things, when can i start seeing postitive things??? i guess not now.

Hey back to blogging, few months ago, I was happy for offering the job, few months later, I will be lost the job? That's isn't job stability at all. Maybe my eq are not good as others. That why I was thinking where should I go. For a second thought, it isn't the end of the world. I have my own responsibilities to settle and I have my own path of life which needs me to create. Life isn't as smooth as what we think they, it has it's own way to go.

Fan la, want to find somebody to confide with.

ytd just past by a shop call phoon huat, i knew the person who i bought the chocolates are from there. its reminds me bits of memory where its gone. its not been myself for these few days, in fact i'm sick and tired of everything. but life still carries on isnt it?

i have been thinking back of what a lady told me, i would say she's much more pitiful. Here are her story, she was thinking that an american bio technology companies are going for her egg as her egg are for its reproduction of immune of cancer. and it could be cost alot and she's trying to have some defend of herself.

she think that her family of putting staying over there are trying to prison her of not going out and when i told her that when she was asleep there's somebody came out of her room. she told me was it her room mate? i was like what? it actually is you who came out in the middle of the night, i find that the ppl who stay in there are very 'sheng bu ke che'. the reason why is because the lady who told her background to me, actually play well in her piano. it was such a melody that i seriously would ask for more. even though it just a short period there, it was quite a meaningful experience for me. which everybody fears of it.

its been there for years, when can i hurl over it? would my path of life been stagant for the rest of my life? i seriously do need somebody could confide wif me, however i dont think there's a people there.

RMB there's always ppl who come and go. thats the principle of LIFE.

today i just know a lady?! i dont know can use what to describe her, it was my first time to meet her but she has alot of things to confide wif me? abt steven?? its bdd things anyway but i dont know why she seems very lonely.

i feel she's like a person who know for a long time. and the lian he wan bao she buy was still in my bag. how forgetful is she. okay, i think its my first time and last time to see her? cause i dont really go to j8.

anyway dont think too much, she's just a ou yu. thats all i can say.

oh ya, just atteneded ndo3. however it was an dissapointment again but not totally an dissapointment cause i do chat with chester for quite a few mins? tts gd rite? counted myself to be lucky? actually he was the one who approached talk to me. u know i dont talk to others, whenever i dont feel there's a need.

maybe its my natural that, whenever i being misunderstand or being maligned, i wont go and further explain nor i will try make an effort to go and explain for it. cause i do know in this world, the first impression is fuck up, everything is totally a gone case. and the impression is there, no matter how hard i do explain? will the person do believe?

no right?? so ya lor, let the bad impression of me and etched into ppl's mind and i would carry on as my own life. i do feel tired? but would there be any change if i do the change? i also dont understand myself. just feel its tired to have it in this way. emo again?

i suppose not.

met someone in ten mins time. kinda look forward, but the excitment is no more. haha. lol. just spend 700 dollars for top up my accounts. haha. bo bian. thats all, hope to blog more. hehe.